Anger

I felt anger this evening. Uncontrollable anger rose up in me just because my son wouldn't clean his room. I went to his room and started picking things up and felt this anger take over me. Like why am I doing this? It's his room he should be cleaning it. As I kneeled to the floor to get control of this I thought what is wrong with me. I've never had anger problems before and for something as minor as cleaning his room. The thing was his room wasn't that bad. You could at least see the majority of the floor because everything was pushed up against the wall. I love my children. As I'm sitting here thinking about calling my doctor tomorrow I'm already feeling a calmness just talking about it. I wonder if this is a side effect from having the stroke. I mean a stroke effects the brain and emotions come from the brain. I've also noticed that I cry more, whether it be a movie, a real life instance or just thinking of the past. After crying I get a headache and sometimes the nausea hits too. If anybody out there is having anger issues please post so we can learn from each other and continue to heal. Good Luck and may God be with us!

Dictionary for stroke victims on March 5, 2011

Today was a good day until mid evening. The nausea hit me all of a sudden. Usually my Zofran in the morning is enough, but tonight I had to take my second one. As I sit here right now writing about my day I'm fighting the dizziness. I'm having to type with my eyes closed just to get this done. My problem is I try to clean my house and get things done like I did before this stroke and my body just won't cooperate. I'm not use to being weak. I hate this. I just want to be normal again. I do know that I have my faith and it'll take time, but God is there for me and my family. How is everybody else doing? Unless I have any sudden changes I don't see my neurologist for a couple of months. I continue to invent new words. I know that this is a normal occurrence for most stroke victims because our brains know what we want to say, but our mouths don't always translate it correctly. Maybe we can all get together and start a dictionary for stroke victims (LOL). I'm going to get off now. I'm keeping it short tonight. Just not feeling good. Be well and pray.

February 28, 2011

Today my day began well. I woke up, fed the guinea, covered up my son with his blanket, checked emails, said my prayers, fixed breakfast and then it happened. The headache and eye hurting began. I laid down and felt better after an hour of rest. After lunch that's when the nausea hit because I forgot to take my medicine after I ate breakfast. I tried going to the grocery store with my husband, but it got worse there. I got home and took my nausea medicine and it took about 30 minutes to start feeling better. I was able to eat dinner and do dishes. Today I dealt with blinding sun giving me a headache, muscle weakness, memory problems, and nausea. Hopefully I can get through work tomorrow.

February 27, 2011

As I start this daily blog, I hope that I can do it daily, I ponder about each day. Today I awoke at 6:00 a.m. and tried to stay awake to go to church. It wasn't long and I started having my headaches again. I laid back down around 8:30 and awoke three hours later. I missed church. I experienced something new yesterday. Instead of having sharp pains followed by nausea on the top side of my head I got a sharp stabbing pain in the back of my head followed by pain in my eye. Everyday I am living with muscle weakness, pain in my head, nausea, dizziness, memory loss, headaches, and constipation. The muscle weakness comes and goes. The nausea is tolerable with a prescription of Zofran. This medicine gives me constipation. I've tried others, but this one works best for me. To help with that I've increased my wheat germ and take Metamucil and prune juice. I am thinking about changing to Citrucel, though. The most frustrating thing for me is trying to talk to somebody and completely forget mid-sentence my point I was trying to make. I welcome anyone who has either suffered a stroke or a family member whose loved one is suffering. We can all get through this together.

My daily struggles of being a stroke survivor

Hello! I would like to start by saying that no matter how mild or severe "Strokes Suck". I have been all over on the internet trying to find similar people in my age range, which would be midlife, and all I can find are senior citizens who have suffered strokes. Even though I have alot of the same symptoms I don't have the preconditions that cause a stroke.
This is how it all began. The headaches were getting worse and I finally decided to pull into the emergency room to get checked out. After 6 hours of tests I came to find out by the neurologist on call and the results of a CT scan that they believed I suffered a mini-stroke. I was told to immediately contact my doctor on Monday to set up an MRI. I called and they were so concerned that within 2 hours of my call I was at the MRI clinic. The next day that is when my life came to make alittle sense of all the symptoms I'd been feeling. My symptoms included difficulty remembering day to day things, falling over at work, nausea, headaches, blurred vision and for now that's all I can remember. Like I said I've been having trouble remembering things. Now my dr. tells me that the MRI shows I had a full ischemic stroke and not a mini-stroke. Because of my age they were very concerned what caused it. I don't have high blood pressure, diabetes, obesity, or high cholesterol. I am also 42 years old. The stroke I had is typical of a senior citizen. I have been all over the internet and still can't find any kind of support for people my age, but on the tv news it was reported that strokes have risen in the middle age group and declined in senior citizens. So now the tests begin. I have seen internal medicine, neurologist, opthmologist surgeon, and heart surgeon. I have been through dilated eyes, echocardiogram, carotid artery tests, blood work, and I forget what else. Do you know what they found? Nothing. I am in perfect health. No blood clots, no tears in my heart and no murmurs. I am on medicine to control nausea, medicine to control the side effects of the nausea medicine, medicine to make sure my blood stays flowing, besides my vitamins which is all I took before this stroke. If your young or middle age this blog is for us. I know that each person will be different, but maybe we can support one another.